its been ..

almost 2yrs 7 I am still single. some say this is the a good thing & I can go & "find myself" I say whatevs I need the companionship.

I have "someone" in my life in whom I "frequent" when I need to ca$h those miles in, but he aint what I want. matter fact, when I think of him I get a bad taste in my mouth. I know, mean & why continue to be bothered. #truth is. I told him I want no sexual contact with him, he came out the mouth asking if I Was with someone else. lol..no, just tired of having meaningless "meetings" with you if nothing is coming out of this.

another guy-friend. takes me out, spends bread..all fine..but I see nothing more than friendship. I enjoy his company & it always feels good to have someone want to take you out. but thats it. nothing more, nothing less on my end.

last but not least, ANOTHING LDD (long distance lover) *smh*. yea, I'm aware. he;s cool, good personality, makes me feel like a school girl on the inside but hes FAR AWAY. wtf don't that make ninjas like this in MY area ?! damn.

damn near 2yrs single & I'm ready for a relationship. READY to be loved full time, cuddled with full-time. everything that comes with a relationship full time.

tim gunn: "make it work"

still icky

im thinking about taking a break from everyone.
maybe that will make me feel better

for the past 3 days I have had this same fonky arse attitude && I have NO idea how to get rid of it. I've been down for a minute but its finally catching up to me, like hard.

I am at a road block. have no idea where to go, who to turn to for help, I cant even begin to point out who/what's wrong...wait..yea I can.. and when I talk to that person Im going to let it out. but its more than that.


deuces.

ehhhhhhhhh

for the past few days I have been soooooooooooooo emotional !! IDK if its the BC im taking or I just have pent up feelings that I cant release. ..wish it would just go away !!! :o(


someone make it go away.
I just wanna ball in a corner && cry at times.


uggggh. !!!

soundtracks

as I sit && write this blog, I am compelled to ask...do you ever hear certain songs that just fit that current status or situation in your life ?

today, I heard a new kanye west song called "street lights" it read me sooo right !! It made me think of the current long distance relationship im in that almost kinda sorta maybe a little bit came to an end last weekend. just wishing things could be different and this song captured me.



"streets lights, glowing, happen to be, just like moments, passing...in front of me, so I hopped inthe cab && I paid my fare, see I know my destination, I'm just not there.. lifes just not fair"

this day in time

yesterday...today... I am overwhelmed with excitement, joy, compassion, love.

I have never in my life felt like I was apart of something so strong than this election. I literally am still speechless.

people who stood in line for hours upon hours, I love you & I thank you for your dedication for change. Its time that we as a people of all races and mixes stand up for someone who is truly going to the job and get it done right. Granted, it will take some time.. but with prayer and faith

YES WE CAN !

this has been an amazing journey thru the test of time. slandering thru the presses, tv commercials, ads, I am just so glad that even thru all of the negative, the positive shined !!

Congratulations President Obama, you deserved it !!!

can't wait !!!!

FOR SEPT 9TH,2008 !!!




for the past few weeks I have been on a GCM kick superhellamega hard !! rocking like ish to the first album "As Cruel As School Children"

theres something about this band that has caught my attention since 2005 I think, cant really remember when I first heard their music, but im addicted !!!

soo... I am encouraging those of you who HAVE YET to listen, GO DO IT !!! promise its worth it =o)

&& you can go to MTV.com to listen to the FULL album of "The Quilt" !!

good girls y bad boys

what is the attraction ?! like really... is it the fact that he sells or hangs out all hours of the night and has no care in the world ?! or is it that he does whatever he wants when he wants ?!


its a fast lifestyle, but I know sooo many females (familia included) that have to have them a thug type of guy. I cant fake, Ive been attracted to them before && I have dated a few, but I grew out of it.


idk what it is...but it is something about them that makes you love them.